Figuring out that I am a demisexual has really answered a lot of questions I’ve had about myself. It has helped me understand why i respond to situations and ideas the way that I do. Why I have not ever been really sexually active or even curious to be sexual with others. It has been informative to piece myself together, even though I am not very big on labels and identifying under them because people are people and we fit under an array of labels. I do think this fits me very closely, though.

It’s very hard for me to become intimate with people. Even on a friendly level because people make me nervous. People don’t typically relate to the things I an interested in and they don’t typically think about things to the depth that I think about them at. MY mind has tendencies to become a philosopher. I wonder about everything and I break it down into tiny piece for analysis. That’s the scientist in me.

I wish I could understand basic sexual attraction. I wish I could understand how it works for people and what they feel and why they feel it. But I can’t. I do not get it. I do not get how anyone would desire sexual interaction with another individual that they are not connected to. Maybe someone else can explain it to me? I get that hormones play a role. I get the very basic scientific understanding we have of it, but we are more than our chemical reactions. We are living, breathing, conscious creatures. Why is sexual desire so much higher in every one else? Why do I not get it?

I think it’s more than okay to be sexual as often as you please. I think it is okay to express your sexuality because it is a very big part of us whether we have it or not. So, that being said I don’t want anyone to think that I think being sexual is wrong. I do think that it’s superficial though. I think if you have sex with someone based solely on a few interactions and how they look that it is the most superficial layer of sexuality. It is almost fake to me.

The only reason I say it’s fake is because sex is a lot more than an act. It is a lot more than something that feels good. That is the most basic (other than for reproductive purposes)¬†function sex can provide. Sex should be more than that though. You are physically connecting your body, the body that carries your spirit and your mind. You are making a physical connection to these things. So sex is not basic. It is not superficial in itself. It is powerful. It is like a ceremony of the bodies uniting into one being for a few moments. It is uniting all the things, mind, body, spirit. When you create that bond with someone you barely know, or someone you do not love, it is fake. It is a fake bond.

That does not mean it doesn’t feel good. That does not mean it is not fun. IT also does not mean it’s wrong. If you are aware that you are creating plastic bonds with people, then by all means, go for it.

Because I am a demisexual though, and the emotional bond is extremely important for me to create a sexual bond, I have a hard time wrapping my head around the concept of casual sex.

My conclusion to all of this is that I just don’t want to have sex with anyone ever again.

It is hard on my emotional self, spiritual self, and my body feels unprotected.

These are just my thoughts. I don’t want to offend anyone. I do not think there is anything wrong with you all if you love casual sex or you have multiple sex partners or whatever it is. I do not care. This is just how I particularly see sex and it makes it hard for me to relate to other people about sex since I do not understand.


A Little About Myself

Hello beautiful peoples of the Universe,

My name is Cristina. I am many things, but mainly I am a singer/songwriter, a mother of a 4 year old daughter, an activist and fighter for freedom, an artist, and a violin teacher. I am reserved, yet under the right conditions can be an open book, allowing you to read carefully every page. I am soft, but powerful with my voice, my songs, and in my demeanor. I am a perfectionist and can be hard on myself about any thing, big or small. I am a go-getter. I don’t just say I’m going to do things, I actually do them. I am a dreamer. I hope for a world that only knows love and peace and patience and understanding to exist one day. I understand that dream may be far away, but I intend to create my own small community tat will exhibit these characteristics. I hope to lead the world into a better version of itself. I hope to leave a mark of change, whether slight or large. I hope to make an impact on the way one thinks about our beautiful Mother Earth and her children that reside in it. I am many things, but I am also and probably MOST importantly, a student. I am learning every second of everyday. I am taking steps where I thought I would fall, but stood tall. I am leaving myself open to the beautiful and mysterious lessons the Universe grants us at every moment.

I plan to use this blog as my own outlet for stresses, dreams, ideas, and adventures I experience along the way.


Here is to the new year or 2016 and all the beautiful ups and downs we will encounter along the way. I hope that you’ll enjoy the ride I share openly with you all.

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Talk to you all soon ‚̧


A Little About Myself